Six years ago I parted ways with her. To this day I can’t put my finger on what happened, though throughout the years I’ve thought of her often – wondered what she might be up to, if her mind ever wandered back to the fun we had. There were a few mutual friends we shared so I knew if I ever really wanted to, I could probably get in touch with her. I didn’t though, you see I was at fault in the end…
I allowed my own fears to keep me from finding closure, for many, many years.
Until recently that is. I decided to go out on a limb and send her an email. The last known email address I had, I wasn’t sure she even checked any longer. Alas I wrote it anyhow. I thought to myself, if I can find some closure in this and let her know I’m sorry then this lingering ‘thing’ hovering over me will dissipate.
Nearly a month went by and I hadn’t heard back but I was proud of myself for having written the email. Finally in the end I had done the right thing. Then out of the blue I got a response. Two days later we met up with our combined three children and wouldn’t you know? It felt as if time had barely passed. As it turns out, she had in fact thought of me over the years, we now have more in common than before, and are still able to giggle like we’re in high school. We have since caught up over coffee, the phone and now look back and laugh at the falling out we had.
I let go of the fear, took a plunge, and in turn have a fantastic old new kindred-spirit friend.
It’s an incredible thing – stripping off our insecurities, and finding a beautiful gift beneath that perhaps we never would have found should we have let those fears keep a tight hold.
I hope that you are able to let go of the same in your own life. Is there someone you should get in touch with? Perhaps forgiveness is in order, or an apology of your own. Trust me when I say it is a thrill you can’t imagine. Even if the situation doesn’t resolve (as has happened in my own life), know you did your best, and put it to rest.
{I’m sharing the gift I was given in forgiveness and new friendship with the girls over at Chatting at the Sky}
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