Life’s twists and turns often lead us to the most unlikely places. I never envisioned myself as a stay at home mother to two small children. A little over a year ago I was working outside of the home in a demanding and stressful role that left me feeling emotionally hollow at the end of the day. Things couldn’t be more different now. Laughs, hugs, and kisses are always within close reach.
I did not land at this place instantly. The transition from working outside of the home to becoming a stay at home mom shook me. I was lost and floating adrift the drudgery of a housewife’s daily routine. The dishes were washed, the laundry was folded, and my children had a smile on their faces. I did not. The lack of concrete goals and easily recognizable achievements were sorely missed. No one cared whether the towels were folded and I did not receive a bonus for saving my son from a creepy spider. The excitement from my former life was gone. My metamorphosis from business woman to stay at home mom was faltering in a major way.
After a few weeks spent in the domestic doldrums I was ready to move on from my funk, to leave my self imposed purgatory. I forced myself to slow down and see the beauty that exists in my daily routine. The cup of coffee the children allowed me to enjoy in peaceful near solitude by the window while they watched Sesame Street or the half hour I spent watching my kids build a lopsided snowman. Ordinary but beautiful. I decided I would no longer waste precious time wondering what my next adventure would be. My ordinary life is my adventure. Forcing myself to enjoy life’s small daily gifts has filled me with a renewed sense of gratitude.
Life isn’t perfect. I sometimes daydream about what the future holds for me. Will I ever have time to achieve my goals? Will the dreams of my past ever come to fruition? I remind myself that time moves quickly and my children won’t be snugly toddlers forever. When the going gets tough I remind myself to slow down again and observe life’s comforting details. I’ve never been happier.
Veronica Armstrong is a stay at home mother and freelance writer. She lives with her husband and two small children in Cornell University graduate student housing while her husband studies for his MBA.
She blogs at www.CrunchVTMommy.com about her adventures in natural motherhood, temporary Vermont hiatus, and life as an MBA wife.
Veronica is also a hobbyist photographer that likes to express herself through captures of her ordinary and beautifully hectic life. She loves the challenge of finding beauty where others have overlooked it.
Maple bacon donuts bring her unbridled joy and coffee is her best friend.